Kamikaze

The princess in her flowerbed
Pulled the jungle underground
Where cherry bombs stain the blackbird's red
And explosions never make a sound

Oh, comet come down
Kamikaze over me
And come alive
My midnight melody
Oh, comet come down

My captain on the snowy horse
He's coming back to take me home
(He's coming back to take me home) 
He'll find me fighting back the terrible thwarts
'Cause I'm not afraid to die alone

Oh, comet come down
Kamikaze over me
And come alive
My midnight melody
Oh, comet come down
Kamikaze over me
And come alive
My midnight melody
Oh, comet come down

Maybe I'll write
To save my life
Maybe I'll fly
The eagle eye

Maybe I'll write
To save my life
Maybe I'll fly
The eagle eye
(Eagle eye) 10x's



These are the lyrics from one of my top songs from the artist, Owl City. Give it a listen when you have a few minutes.

At Anchor...

So I was just thinking a little bit earlier and I came to a (small) conclusion that I'm (sort of) in a stand still in life. Here are the points that make me say so:

1. I've graduated from high school. 

2. I haven't done anything since high school except work my ass off.

3. I don't know what I want to do in life.

At this point, the only thing I have going for me right now is my job. There at Smith's, I'm capable of moving to different positions. I've been told by some of my supervisors (and higher management) that I have the potential to keep moving up. And because of me hearing that, that's kind of all I want to do because I know that I at least have a chance to keep going.

It all sounds great to me but I want more. Like I said in my first post, I'm a person who is looking for challenges. Smith's seems like a good place to start, but that's not where I want to be stuck. I look at some of my co-workers and I see them as an example of what I don't want to happen. 

Now this brings me to something that sucks. Moving up to something different other than retail. In order to do anything else you need to have some type of college degree. COLLEGE.... Something that I really don't want to do. I know that I shouldn't be saying that, but college is something in life that I don't want to go through. I think that I spent about 80% of my life (so far) in school. And I don't want to cough up 2-4 more year of my life going to school. It doesn't sound fair to me. Going to school and having to pay thousands of dollars just so you can go. Now that really doesn't sound fair at all. *getting off topic again*

I'm just at that point in life where I don't know what to do with myself.

Getting started....

Well, to start things off. My name is Gabe Gonzales. I'm 18 years old and I live at home with my parents. I work in retail at a store named Smith's Marketplace as a cashier. Nothing special really.

But anyway, I'm just the average person. Even though I hate to say that. I really don't consider myself to be average. So we're not going to say that at all. I don't know what category I would fall under. Maybe that teenager who likes to try new thing. Always looking for a new challenge, greater experiences, and what not.
(^Feels like I'm getting a little of topic here ^)

Just to explain myself and my reason for starting this blog, it was just out of pure boredom (Secret: real reason why I started was because I read one of my friend's blogs and it got me inspired, so hush.. don't tell her.) And I also thought it would be a great idea to start writing again. It's been about a year since I've put my word on paper/the internet. So I just want to get started again. And another reason, I have a lot of stuff in my head so I want to share them with people. Use this opportunity as self therapy to clear my head.

So thanks for reading, Gabe :]